I just finished a (virtual) meditation/writing session with A Very Important Meeting and spent the last hour or so revising poems for a manuscript. This manuscript is a constellation of grief-centered poems from the last year-ish. The subject of grief ranges from response to sexual trauma, miscarriage, abandonment, and more. My projected deadline is November so that I can submit to Riot In Your Throat and others.
The experience of revising these poems is difficult and I have to take a lot of precaution not to retraumatize myself. I have to take breaks. Use a lot of the self-care tools I learned in therapy over the past year. I’ve recently decided to become sober, so that is another crutch I am no longer using. Chocolate truffles and tea help. 🙂
Revising these poems is rewriting my story in a way. It’s an empowering process, putting these words on paper and doing my best to make sure they’re beautiful. I want to send a message to others that they are not alone, but I want to say it well – as Emily said. It’s not simply pouring my trauma on the page. I’ve studied so much in workshops so that I can hopefully spin a metaphor beautifully, turn a phrase cleverly, and write with intention.
I want to complete this manuscript, but more importantly, I want to do it well.
What are you currently working on? It doesn’t have to be a manuscript. Maybe it’s just this challenge – 30 Days Platform Challenge with Beyond The Veil Press. Maybe you’re taking a workshop soon or working on a single piece. Let me know in the comments so I know I’m not alone, too. 🙂
I am actually doing a lot of things at the moment and LOVE it! It’s the good kind of stress. I am TAing and taking a Prose Poetry workshop class and in a few writing group/workshops that is making time for me to write. I am working on a beginning of a manuscript of poetry that I am getting mentored and reviewed on. Lots of great stuff this fall and winter.
Hooray for tea and chocolate !! That’s awesome Sarah ! Proud of you! I’m over here implementing a schedule for my writing. Keeping up w submissions. Taking a workshop on poetry of food tonight so that’s bound to be yummy. Trying to stay on top of btvs 30 day platform challenge the best I can and always ready for poetry labs prose workshop on thursdays :]